M: "Sometimes, it's better to be alone." H: "What do you mean?" M: "Because nobody can hurt you."
Hence some people choose to be alone, may be. Getting our hearts broken is so painful ! Worse, it leaves a strong impression on our memory, erasing which takes a toll.
This is a dialogue from the movie Good Will Hunting. Pretty hard to ones who are afraid to love people.
You don't know about real loss, because that only occurs when you love something more than you love yourself. I doubt you've ever dared to love anybody that much.
The want for being loved totally takes over the cautious unconscious behaviour of a person who is afraid to lose a loved one. This unconscious nature unfortunately, has been developed as a result of ones past experiences of ones love being betrayed by dear ones around us, whom we trust more than anything else in life. And this is what happens when people who have fallen for someone suddenly behaves strangely.
Their unconscious caution mode has be switched on. It is as if the child inside is reminding the heart how so and so left you alone when you were scared. How the hands had beaten you when you expect those hands to pamper you.
Life for such a heart is such a painful experience.
And I pray to God that such a heart gets someone who amends the unconscious arena, heal the wounds of the past and let the heart love without caution.
I just came across something which has proved loving is so hard for me.
' for the heart who is too lazy to keep the weed of greed outside his existence, the seed of love cannot survive ' This was said by His Holiness Radhanath Swami. And so rightly, the emotion requires nurturing too. like the situation i am in these days. it is totally killing the seed
How often does a third person destroy the feelings of love sowed in your heart ?
I interrogate myself with the same question and hence I put forward to you to ponder upon.
I am facing a situation like this !
My appreciation for a person has drastically deteriorated all because of the rage created by a nut-head third party (TP). It was the anger for the TP which I feel over shadowed the rays of love percolating my emotional sustenance for the whole humanity. I got angry with everyone I came across and my mental capabilities were kept busy with ideas of revenge and humiliation for the TP. All my attempts to humiliate it in whichever way possible were falling on deaf ears worsening my helplessness. IT had created a good persona in the public portfolio or at least with the reserves and all my attempts seems like making me a evil minded persona.
With the movements of my fingers on the keyboard I am trying one more time to subdue the anger and bring the intensity of LOVE back in chambers of my heart.